You're handling it very well

"You're handling it very well"

Am I?

I don't really know. If you mean my control is good, then thanks, though it's becoming more apparent that my pancreas is trying to help out still, keeping my levels more steady than they would otherwise be. I don't feel I'm in control, I feel like a mess, a big, conflicted, sugar-free mess (with that nasty after taste too). Everyone seems to have a horror story or a miracle cure. I worked on an amputee ward as a nurse, your horror stories are nothing to what I've seen poor control do. As for miracle cure, I will smile serenely and thank you for that wonderful news.

I thought I was handling it well, but I'm over it. To hell with diabetes and insulin and carbohydrates and med companies and doughnuts and everything else! Screw the injections and the highs and the lows and the cost and the fuzziness and the shakes and the exhaustion.

I have to book an appointment to see the endocrinologist in the next couple of weeks. Maybe I'll feel better when he tells me it was just a dream and to wake up and have some carbs.